it totally disheartens me to see such a generous friend of mine being taken advantage of. and i’m not even sure if my friend’s bf realizes how much he’s taking advantage of my friend. but it still makes me so sad and useless to see it happening. even when i keep telling my friend to stop giving away so much, i don’t know what i can do other than that. because i know this friend is just so caring and selfless that he’ll want to help out his bf no matter what. but sometimes there’s a limit to how much you should give. and maybe it’s my friend that keeps insisting on his large gifts, and i know it’s hard to refuse but there must be some way his bf can stop taking everything. 

i realize that writing really does help me to clarify my thoughts, especially when i feel i’m more articulate and comfortable writing/typing over verbal communication. it’s always been a great outlet for myself. it helps me analyze what a problem may be and plan out what i want to do. in the end it also visually lays out the solutions. 

publishing it online helps solidifies the idea and makes it feel even more concrete. it makes my thoughts feel more legitimate in a way. i’ve also read that declaring something publicly like a goal makes you more motivated or gives you more pressure to follow through because now there is more expectation to stick to my word.